Sometimes dying seems easy compared to living, when you’re having one of “those days.” I am having one right now. Overwhelmed, frustrated, depressed by the rain when I need to be out working. Winter’s coming; I’m not ready; and there is going to be a price to pay. Take a hot shower, turn up the heat, get out the unusual bottle of wine. I am lucky; this is only temporary, even though I know deep down inside I am running low on time. Time marches on day-by-day, without a worry about me. It used to seem so dreadfully slow, but now it is running ahead of me, giggling with glee! It has no end, but I know I do and soon time will be free of me. And I don’t know whether to fight it or surrender, Settling calmly into my memories and dreams, Waiting to see what will be. KJ 9/17 to 10/17/2019 Epilog: Wet summer, early winter rain - depressing. But I have work to do before I can go. Rest awaits me, but not yet I hope.
